Bon L'Anniversaire Sherm

Last night as I struggled with falling asleep.

I remembered holding Sherm's hand, trying not to cry in his presence, knowing it was the last time I would hear his breath, feel his warmth and have him by my side.
I held my hand out just as it had been held in his grasp, but now I could only grip onto my blankets, his hand is no longer there to hold. This time I allow the tears to come and cry myself to sleep.

Today I found a letter he had sent to me this past year, the words read
Life is a never ending journey of discovery.
I remembered it was his birthday today.
These coincidences are not coincidences at all.



I am listening to jazz on your birthday Sherm.
With every day, with every lasting memory I carry you with me.
I am so grateful you came into this world, and that together we discovered life.
You were with me until you had to leave this life, but I know you are still with me now.
You once wrote to me, without your love I don't exist.
But I never stopped loving you, so you continue to live on in my heart.

I live for you now, your spirit continues on in the living.

Mon raison d'etre
l'amour de ma vie

past 4 months

I can't even sum with words at this time, so i'll update with pictures..... most will be to my picasa if you want to check them out, i'm also on Facebook, twitter and myspace for more info on my goings on's. perhaps i'll get up the courage to write the saga, but for now I just want to listen to Thelonious Monk at noontime without anything else to do, nor do I want to plan for anything else to do but be.

thinking about my edgamakachon

So i have these things called goals:

i goal plan nearly every day. obsessively.

sometimes, i make goals - to make goals.

it's a strange mentality, but as a good friend once inspired me,

i never say what i'm going to do, unless i'm prepared to do it.

So with 6 months in Seattle, doing whatever odd job i can find, i have decided that in inspiration of that professional career up in the sky, i need to further my education.

Here's how the goals look right now

• eat, love, pray & work~ in Seattle ~ artist activist style
• write my book (or 3) presently until they're done 1-2 years
• start Creating Space --> just you wait and see ;>
• live life joyfully, healthfully
• start a summer school program 2010 for Creating Space
• start grad school Fall 2010 ~cross my fingers D.C. ~ 2 years
• breathe, let life flow
• continue working on program development & fundraising for Creating Space
• live life joyfully, healthfully and successfully
• finish grad school 2012 ;P
• jump up & down & scream!
• initiate programs in schools 2012-forever
• open Creating Space Center 2014
• experience success through the struggles
• inspire children to be creative & free
• inspire youth to be who they were born to be
• teach parents how to be mothers & fathers who love unconditionally & bring up our next generations of clear minded, peaceful thinkers & innovators instead of media influenced Zombies~ soul-less cattle in this mass herding society
• learn to let go, do what i am here to do, evolve & transcend

Om namo guru dev namo

i honour the teacher within you & within me.

any grad school prep suggestions? gladly appreciated!