Warrior Diva since 1985

today I rediscovered my inner self

influenced at an early age, or perhaps encouraged at an early age, to be my strong, determined, independent self fighting against darkness and swirling in the sky with a flying white horse. Oh how some things we don't realize about our path manifest later in life, even some 20 years later, the message is true:

Children have wisdom, listen. Children are light, see.

Previous to the multiple life experiences which were in the path to my existance, I had that inner soul fighting to be a warrior in a childs body. Now I have a somewhat grown-up body but I still feel so much like a child, embracing that inner child I maintain my inner strenght.

Thankful for this remembrance via the campaign to raise awareness against child abuse from Mashable.com - Facebookers Changing Profile Pics to Cartoon Characters to Fight Child Abuse.

Those who know me true, know my determination to focus on this issue in the only way I know possible - to spread light and love to all compassionnately so that those whose hearts are hardened by past experiences, current struggles, and future anticipations can feel support and care.

Masters of the Universe Unite!

the city is closed, go sledding!

I love how this city closes down with snowfall! This was from the SDOT gov website.

Basically, they should post, the city is closed, go sledding!

Latest Road Closures
Updated: 11/23/10 1:30pm

Please Note: While some streets may look OK now, we are anticipating that the streets may have areas of black ice later today as the temps drop. Depending on time of update, this list may not be comprehensive. Please use caution and common sense.

1700-2200 block E Madison Street @ 19 ave e/boyer av e
E John St / 12th Ave E to 15th Ave E @ E Mercer St/12 Ave E to 13 Ave E
E Union St/16 Ave to 18 Ave @ W. Dravus St. / 20th Ave W. to 27th Ave W.
6th Ave S. / Yesler Way to S. Main St. @ NE 51 st & Latona Av NE
Denny Wy / Melrose to Stewart @ 23rd Ave E Alder St
Marion St / 1st - 2nd Av's @ NE 50 St & University Wy NE
NE 54th St / 20 Ave NE to 22 Ave NE @ NE Northgate Wy / 23rd NE to Lake City Wy
NE 75th St / 25 Ave NE to 30 Ave NE @ NE 65 ST/25 Ave NE to 30 Ave NE
Eagle St/ Western to 1st Av @ E. Thomas St. / Melrose E. to Bellevue E.
Cedar St / Western to 1st Av @ E. Mercer St. / Melrose E to Bellevue E
Vine St / Western Av to 1st Av @ E. Roy St. / Melrose E to Bellevue E
Blanchard St/ Western to 1st Av @ Bell St / Western to 1st Av
Wall St / Western to 1st Av @ Dravis st, from 20th wb up hill
Queen Anne Ave N. / Roy St. to Galer St. @ Denny Way /Westlake eb
Lenora between Western / 1 av @ e marginal wy s/s michigan street
S Holgate Bridge/Beacon Ave S to 8 Ave S @ S McCellan St/23 Ave S to Rainier Ave S
Olson Pl SW / SW Roxbury to 1 Ave S @ W Charlestown St / 46th Ave SW to 47 Ave SW
Highland Park Wy SW / W Marginal Wy to SW Holden St @ 600 block Madison Stt
Lenora St between Terry Av & Denny Way

Bus Riding and Sunglasses

The past summer months have taught me a lesson about spirit. I have become more consciously aware of the influences of the spirit all around me. It has been an awareness I have known at numerous times of my life, though until the year where I have devoted myself to the inner visions (thank you Stevie) of the essence of life and spirit of consciousness, now more than ever, I understand the spirit within and all around me. This spirit within us is spreading out to others all around us. We share this light and all are connected to us regardless of the space within which we share.

A while back I would wear my sunglasses to shade others from seeing my eyes. I began to realize how easily people could see into my soul; how at one glance I am an open book of truth and light that through my eyes I allow others to read the series of novels of my life.

It can sometimes be a dangerous or treacherous adventure, because of the potentially harmful and unsafe environments I sometimes find myself within. Riding the lucky number 7 at 2:30 in the morning, when the few companion’s minds have been predominantly influenced by crack, alcohol and/or starvation. Fortunately not only my sixth sense can deter me from their unconscious being and shelter my sensitive consciousness from being impacted by their presence.

As I literally do yoga in the streets- waiting for the bus, I spread my arms wide to the sky above me, embracing the light above my head and breathing deeply enjoying this beautiful connection to the spirit, I know that I may look like a crazy person. Some people pass by and smile at me, others have this concerned look like “what the hell is she doing?!” and others laugh or honk as a ridicule.

The reaction of others are okay with me: as for how I feel about other people’s perceptions in my life, I no longer need approval for the way that I am. I learned this lesson back when I was in junior high. There is an intense social system trying to impact how I am “supposed” to interact with others, how to “fit-in” socially. In some ways it wants to govern how I am able to share my inner light with others, or how I personally feel about myself, because of the acceptance of others. Oftentimes, some may not understand other’s ways of being, creative expressionism, or simply their style. The initial perception is based solely on one’s appearance, then actions, speech and thereafter interactions with others, but if we have not taken the time to communicate amongst each other, prejudegements miss the inner being of a person.

I know that I live my life I have maintained connection to the spirit which guides me throughout life, no other person can understand this unless there is complete compassion, nonjudgement, and acceptance in the truest and most unconditional love.

Light shining from the sky above me, clouds surrounding the entire day, but as I embrace the consciousness, it seems that the skies open up and I am constantly surrounded by the light. Thank you for shining all over me, he once said. Go towards the light, for when you are in the light, there is no darkness. I keep you with me always as I have been sharing light and love from a far though I know you are with me always.

Day and Night

I am constantly processing this life, my mind is churning at all hours of the day, observing like a child who has just seen something for the first time, felt the breeze on her face for the first time and it took my breath away- thinking – what was that?!? Being a bit shocked and a bit thrown off, I don’t know if I’m supposed to cry for my caretaker to consul me, or if I am able to adapt and understand what that stimulation was – like child development concepts.

Life is continually changing and we are continually evolving, with each next experience, of every day, as long as we are being aware and conscious of the changes within and all around us. I am embracing the changes with arms spread wide.
Embracing the sun as it rises every morning, as I go outside to see the light above me and feel it on my skin, despite the temperature, I can embrace the sun in front of me. How I love the activity of the day, constantly moving, so much going on all beings feeding off the energy of the sun.

I can embrace the day as it continues to move forward into the evening. I am grateful for this day which I was fortunate to share it with others who are alive and experiencing life. Then I embrace the sun as it sets in the evening, allowing for the darkness to come and the day to be finished, we can embrace the evening night. This is the time which I enjoy most for it is here that I can retreat back into my solace, into my quiet place if I want to.

Family dinner at 8: sharing a meal and a special company. Perhaps afterwards, enjoy entertainment by music, dance, culture, and all the enjoyable things which we do to express the experiences of the day. The activity only stops when we have had too much stimulation for our upright selves.

Then I can appreciate the other activities which may happen during the occasional late night witching hour, and perhaps after a bit of wandering in the aloneness of the night as a song sings of this oddity: “the lonely loner walks the street at night, toss and turn, can’t seem to ease my mind, a a at night.” After the activities of the day have subsided, I catch myself up late into the midnight hours, past then to the early morning; this special time is when the creativity of my inner soul comes.

In between the space of darkness and light, once I am well and tired, is where I find myself retreating to this special place of union, resting once again in connection with my world of unconscious thought and travel.
I embrace all of life. Darkness, light and the silence in between

Summertime Writings: Watching Boats pass on a sunny day

“Commitment” is the name of the sail boat that I first noticed passing as I stop to appreciate its wonder. I am sitting at the Burt Gilman off the canal writing in enjoyment for this present moment. Watching the boats pass and hearing the waves of the Canal which connects the ocean water of the Puget to the Lake Union. All in front of me are people enjoying their summer Sunday on the water. I love this town I love the water!

“Alliance” is the name of the ridiculously large yacht that I see empty of any person and feeling overly large and useless of space. I remember the overly large homes of my up-bringing where I felt the coldness of pretentiousness and the need for bigger and better. I am disgusted by this mentality of motion and engine gas guzzling power which doesn’t seem fun for anyone but the two people on the board. I am baffled that two people would imagine that this ginormous rig is essential for enjoyment. I wonder with a name expressing association and coalition, how they interpret their involvement with other people as they are not in any way intermingling with another water friend other than dominating space.

A father and his two young boys with their trusted hound putt by in the smallest fishing dingy and I see joy. I feel that he is imparting an experience of wonder to these children. To them, joy is simply to be on the water, watching with wonder. Not needing to be in the largest boat on the water, no yacht could bring them closer to the flowing water of the small fishing boat where they can reach their hands outside the boat and feel the water rushing through their fingertips.

The other large boats are a potential hazard. Someone could fall off the side and be mangled by the propeller of the engine. Get too many large boats together and they have no maneuvering ability causing a potential problem of collision. Watching boats passing I am reminded of the simplicities of life.

I enjoy the company of the duck and talk to him in my Donald Duck voice as he passes by.

Blackberries, a fruitful season

So on my way from the bungalow to the bus I found a patch of blackberries. Ripe with the end of summer heat I came to an understanding that a few days previous, 6-year-olds were sharing with me. A simple thought but it seems to be a poignant analogy for the present. The sweetest, most juicy berries in the patch are the ones that are hardest to reach.

The juiciest berries are the most difficult to reach because you may get scratched or pricked by the protruding thorns, but eventually the joy of attaining the berry is sweet in your mouth. This as well is not long lasting. Eventually the berry will be consumed and the sweetness will be swallowed, no longer on our palate. We may remember the berry and want more of it – like the little ones who were sharing the joy of picking berries with me the other day. Their hands full of berries they could no longer hold, yet continued to pick “just one more” and each time, it was one more, then one more. We eventually had no space to hold berries without spoiling them to waste along the ground. The cup became full, along with our bellies. At the moment we no longer could reach for another, when the juiciest berry was furthest from our reach, we simply had to give up on wanting what we could not have.

Even though the sweetness was enjoyed in our mouth, no longer were we interested in the flavor, as we had had too much to stomach. We enjoyed every moment of discovering another sweet spot, reaching out to find the perfect ripest one, sometimes getting pricked by the protection in the process, though grabbing for more until eventually we were full.

Presently, the only berries left on the vines from a season past are rotten now with over ripened mold and the summer days have turned into the fall: a fruit bearing vine is now simply an invasive weed. Those special tangy treats were delicious while they lasted and now we must relinquish the moment to appreciate a season of sweetness it was lovely and delicious while it lasted. May we now appreciate the fruitful offerings at present?

I appreciate the moments I am able to share with children in my presence. I feel of their light and their connection to the energy of the light above and all around us. Any person who shares the connection with children understands that it is a space where we once were as a child: exploratory and free, eyes wide open to all that is around us. Staying close to that light, to that inner child, there is the connection to the divine. Embracing the passing day with arms wide open and seeing all that goes on. Open to all fruits of every season.

End of Summer Yoga with Ashley

To all the Cats and Dogs who love to do Downward Dog and Cat alike~ I have some fun yoga concepts to introduce around town and hope you can join in when it works for you! Also, I'm sub-teaching at numerous studios so KIT via facebook for updates if I send out a last minute change to my schedule!